Since ending things, I have been called every name in the book, from bitch to cunt to bad mom. The last one hurts the most. This wasn't a split second decision that was made out of anger. It was a decision that I had thought about and considered for a few weeks, toying around with the consequences and how it would affect my daughter. I decided that I didn't want her to grow up watching an unhealthy relationship. I would rather she had two happy homes than one unhappy one.
I knew that this would be hard, I just didn't know HOW hard. Andrew truly is an amazing person, but is it really fair to stay with someone simply because they are everyone elses version of perfection? When you aren't happy, and aren't getting the support that you need, it isn't fair to push yourself through the relationship just because everyone else thinks you should.
I know that a lot of people are shocked by what's going on. I can't tell you how many times people told me how perfect we were together, and that they wanted a relationship just like us. Just because you never saw the issues, doesn't mean they weren't there.
I love Andrew dearly, and I always will. We are a family, and we have a child together. He is my best friend, and that won't change. Sometimes you just have to do what's best for you.
I want to thank everyone who has been so supportive this week. I have made new connections, as well as found old ones. I never realized how many people around me really cared so much. I am so grateful so have such amazing people around me. Andrews family has reached out to let me know that I will always be a part of their family, which has been so helpful and warming over the past few days.
I'm sure that I will be blogging much more these next few weeks as I house hunt and find my new place in life. Thank you again to everyone.
I love you and goodbye.
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