It's been a while since I originally posted my blog about depression. It has been almost five months since I had Brinlee. On Friday, I finally gave in and got on anti-depressants.
The last few months have been very hard for me, and very taxing in regards to my home and work life. I have been extremely distant, emotionally unstable, and bitchy to everyone around me. I have tried hard to battle through this depression on my own, and am finally realizing that this is a losing battle. Not only has my boss asked if I am doing okay emotionally, but the people around me have noticed and made comments. I tried hard to get through this without the assistance of others or any medication, but I just couldn't do it.
I am on day 4 of being on anti depressants. I feel extremely foggy all the time, my appetite has decreased, and I am hitting the emotional low that comes at the beginning of taking them. Today has been extremely hard, as I came back to work from vacation. I am exhausted.
It has been a long time since I have felt like this, and I am not exactly sure how to handle myself. It is past the point of being able to portray myself as doing okay to others, and I feel extremely vulnerable knowing that others can see that I am not doing okay.
I want to go home.
Love you! You're brave and you are taking care of yourself, and reaching out. All things you should be doing when you feel like this.
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